I’m so anxious and afraid. What You have planned for me these next couple months is unconventional. UNCONVENTIONAL AND UNCOMFORTABLE. I can see how You want me to step out of my comfort zone and face my fears…. I don’t like it. I can hear *snip *snip and I know what that means. I can question and ponder why I’m not like so-and-so or why I couldn’t have been “normal” (whatever the heck that means), but that would be futile and stupid.
I already ranted to You before in my journal, but nonetheless… Once again, You are reminding me that none of my finances, education, status, relationships, etc. can give me security or joy. They are nothing compared to who You are, Jehovah Jireh.
I trust You. I really do.
It’s just, as of now, hard to look past the next ..2 months.
I just want a fresh start.
When I am afraid I will trust in You
When I’m overcome I will cling onto
The Rock that is higher, He’s higher
The Rock that is higher
— Kristin Armstrong (via kvtes)